Saturday, June 27, 2009

Pictures from Isaiah's Big Day!

Isaiah had a wonderful birthday. It was just a quiet day, but it was perfect. Isaiah had so much fun! It was really hot outside, so we didn't have any outdoor festivities. Even so, it was filled with smiles from Isaiah . . . who could hardly contain his excitement. His "party" was an all-day event! =0)

Here are the pictures from the biggest portion of his day . . . the birthday cake . . . and, yes, I spelled birthday correctly this year. =0)

Click to play this Smilebox scrapbook: Isaiah turns 4!!!

Nai-Nai trying to catch a quick nap . . .
Isaiah decided to designate her
as the official balloon-holder =0)

Ye-Ye found the presents just as enjoyable =0)

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Happy 4th Birthday, My Little Man!!! =0)

That's right, Isaiah officially turned 4 at 6:28 pm this evening!!! =0)

It's amazing how 4 years ago today, my little man was born. It's also amazing how my 10 pound, 3 oz. and 23 1/2 inch-long child is now close to 50 pounds and 48 inches tall! =0)

I am so grateful that God blessed me with this little guy - the little guy that doctors said wouldn't be here. I was told that I may not be able to have children, and God answered my prayers and blessed me with my beautiful Isaiah.

May you continue to grow (physically, mentally, and spiritually) into the man God created (and calls) you to be. You are amongst the most wonderful blessings God has ever given me, and one of His most beautiful promises to me. Though things haven't been easy for you, you continue to radiate His joy and peace, and even His comfort and faithfulness. You have even shown me how to live out a child-like faith. May you know His abundant blessings today and every day for the rest of your life.

I love you, my little Scrunch!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Anaphylaxis Stinks!

I can remember, 4 years ago, begging and pleading for God to make Isaiah make his appearance. =0) I remember driving to the doctors office thinking, "I'm sick of this bed rest. My left side hurts. I just want to see my baby!" I hoped that maybe, just maybe, they would finally tell me to go to the hospital because Isaiah was going to make his entrance into this world today. Well, the doctor made me go to the hospital because he thought I'd had enough - Isaiah was 5 days overdue and he was causing blood pressure issues (little did we know it was his size that was causing those issues). Finally!!! =0) Anyway, I drove to the hospital only to wait until the next evening to actually see my little man's face.

Well, today I found myself back in the hospital. Only this time, it was the ER and it wasn't for the most joyous of occasions. Isaiah anaphylaxed again this morning. I feel so bad for the little guy, and I felt almost helpless . . . except for God's strength. I feel like I am getting use to the concept of giving an Epi . . . I can't say that I'm completely used to it, though - I ended up shaking and crying later. Isaiah didn't even eat anything (nor drink anything) this morning - he just didn't seem to have an appetite. I gave him all of his meds and an hour and a half later he was vomiting, having trouble breathing, and turned blue. No noticeable swelling, no hives, very little flushing. Just the look of fear in his eyes.

I gave the Epi, gave him a nice dose of Benadryl, and cleaned him up while praying, praying, praying. Thankfully, he never lost consciousness - he kept those beautiful eyes open the whole time. He did so well. In less than a minute, Isaiah was breathing well again. Within a few more minutes the ambulance arrived to transport us to the hospital (and yes, we recognized the medic from a previous ER trip).

Once we got to the hospital, Isaiah was doing so much better. His color was returning and his blood pressure was almost normal - you could barely tell anything had happened . . . except his tummy still hurt and he had a head ache. =0(

I can say that we have had more "pleasant" trips to the ER - I was told that I gave the Epi unnecessarily and that my definitions of anaphylaxis and lethargy were incorrect. I was also told that Isaiah was turning blue because he was holding his breath and that his vomiting was "just a kid thing." What!?! Apparently, not all doctors (especially ER doctors) know what anaphylaxis is nor lethargy (which just so happens to mean "abnormal drowsiness, the quality or state of being lazy, sluggish, or indifferent" according to the Merriam-Webster dictionary) are, at least in the fullness of the definition. I do want to add, it wasn't a nurse who made me feel like I was making mountains out of mole hills (to steal a phrase from my dad), but it was the doctor! A quick call to Isaiah's allergists straightened everything out . . . and the doctor will receive a packet of information on what these terms really mean.

I was already feeling horrible that my baby anaphylaxed again . . . twice in about 3 weeks . . . 4 times in the past 2 months . . . what am I doing wrong? The doc really didn't need to add to that by being rude. I was also told that Epis don't work that fast and that the Epi was already out of his system by the time we got to the hospital, so why was Isaiah doing so well if it were anaphylaxis? Hmmm, let's see . . . anaphylaxis, Epi administered, Benadryl actually given and stayed in his tummy long enough to be absorbed. Sorry for the added emotions - he really irked me. I guess it's one of those, "don't mess with my baby," things. Needless to say, the doctor is being investigated . . . this is also the second time we have seen that particular doctor . . . we had a similar experience with him before.

Anyway, back to Isaiah. Isaiah is doing much, much better. He was bouncing around as if nothing had happened . . . sort of. He was irritable, which is to be expected, but at least he doesn't seem to be swelling or anything like that. He didn't eat too well, but that's to be expected, too. At least he doesn't seem too tired. Thank God.

I can't begin to tell you how comforted I was by God this afternoon. Every time I thought that I wasn't doing enough for Isaiah God redirected my thoughts. He even kept me sane throughout the whole ordeal. My brain worked with me, even though I was tired to begin with (I was up late last night and got up earlier than usual). I didn't even feel nauseous (though you'd think I'd be over that one by now). =0} And Isaiah - he was so calm after the Epi (he was crying and asking to see a doctor). God is amazing. I'm glad He's my sanity and my peace.

Anyway, please keep Isaiah in your prayers. We are still waiting on the platelet count . . . hopefully tomorrow . . . =0)

More tomorrow . . . =0) - Happy early birthday, my Isaiah!!! =0)

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Happy 47th Anniversary . . .

. . . to the most wonderful parents!!!!

June 23, 1962

More wedding photos

May you have many more happy, peaceful, healthy, and blessed years to come! =0)

A Few Goodies =0)

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention . . . THE COOKBOOKS ARE READY!!!! =0) Remember the cookbook I talked about a while ago (the one from MastoKids)??? Yup, it's ready. Well, it has been for a while, I just forgot to write about it. =0} However, it's a wonderful book with a ton of yummy-sounding recipes. I just purchased mine, so I haven't had the time to try it out yet (I also have to modify the recipes so they will be safe for Isaiah . . . this is a regular cookbook, folks). =0) Seriously, a regular cookbook, not an allergy cookbook (though there are about 26 recipes in there from my modified stash and conglomerations that are safe for Isaiah and people just like him). There is even a pic of Isaiah in there. =0)

If you're interested in purchasing one, please visit The money used to purchase the cookbook will go to Masto Kids to further research and awareness of mastocytosis.

You can also help support further research and awareness by purchasing some of their other goodies, such as car magnets, bracelets (the silicone ones), medical and other informational brochures, little cards that explain spots (they even work to explain Isaiah's rashes), pins, t-shirts, pens, writing tablets, etc. So, you can also purchase a few other goodies to give as gifts for birthdays and such, or to give to yourself . . . hint-hint. =0)

Friday, June 19, 2009

I'm Seeing Spots!

Well, considering I haven't updated in a little bit - things have been sooooo hectic here. I figured that I should write a quick post to let you know that Isaiah has been doing okay. I would love to be able to say he is doing great, but he has been getting those lovely red spots (which haven't seemed to be acting like they have been . . . you know, disco-like). On top of that, he is flushing still. He has had some problems with swelling, but not as bad as before the Prednisone. I guess that means slowly things are returning to normal - I hope. The spots, though, have been a little weird this time. Last Monday, Isaiah got these red spots on his arms - just on his arms. Just spots - not raised or itchy. Just red spots like he had put droplets of red Kool-Aide on his arms (that's pretty much what the disco light-like spots look like). The spots showed up again on Tuesday, but briefly. By Wednesday, they showed up and were itchy. On Thursday, they were raised with little blisters this time. By Friday, those spots began to heal and are now scabbed from the blisters. They aren't big spots, but still weird. He's never had this before, but I know that it's not uncommon with masto.

With the heat here, I'm not too surprised that Isaiah's body is reacting - it's hot! He even had problems yesterday - it was 103 without the heat index. YUK! I think had I known how hot it was, I would have kept him indoors the entire day. Not knowing (until it was too late, anyway) caused a lot of flushing (even with the vest), and we almost had another hospital visit. Anaphylaxis takes many forms, and can include unconsciousness . . . Isaiah became lethargic and just acted very different. Thankfully, no Epi was needed, as Benadryl and Hydroxyzine seemed to stop the reaction . . . along with air conditioning and a bit of rest.

Today, the weather remained the same. I miss cool/cold weather. =0) Yeah, I know, Florida is not the place for such weather. On the other hand, Isaiah's body doesn't like cold weather either. If anybody knows a place where the weather stays in the 60's and lower 70's all year, please let me know . . . I'd move there in a heartbeat! ;0)

The Prednisone is causing Isaiah to have a slightly rounder face - it works with his dimples, though. =0) It's actually nice to see him with a little chubs on the cheeks. Before the endoscopy, Isaiah was soooo skinny. I think the last time he was weighed (at the hospital almost 2 weeks ago), he weighed around 50 pounds! =0) He's tall, so 50 works for him. I have to say though, when he went to bed last night his face wasn't as full as it was when he got up this morning - his face was so round! =0)

I am looking for a medical stroller for Isaiah, to help on outings. Baby strollers aren't big enough nor strong enough for Isaiah (a regular baby stroller goes up to 35/40 pounds, our old one only went up to 45 . . . and Isaiah was way too long for it). I found one, but I'm having a hard time finding a place that will work with insurance companies - the things are expensive!!! =0) Seriously, this stroller costs around $450 . . . on sale . . . and it's one of the cheaper ones! I found it on sale, which would be nicer for the insurance, but the places who offer it do not work with insurance companies - I was told that they would submit paperwork for me to be reimbursed . . . yeah, like I have that kind of money lying around. =0) Right now, we have a wagon. It works, it's just bulky . . . and it doesn't fit well in the trunk of my car. So, when Isaiah's legs hurt or he isn't feeling well (like yesterday), I end up carrying him . . . my 50-pound child . . . who's tall . . . yeah, it hurts. =0) I love it when he wants me to hold him - you know, it brings back all those memories of him being a little baby. He's just getting too big. =0( (it's a good thing, I know) =0)

We are still waiting on the results from the blood tests (platelet count). We should have heard something by today (I called, but got no response . . . yeah, it's the pediatrician's office that will no longer be seeing him). =0) Really, I don't like switching doctors. In MD, I used the same PCP for over 20 years. However, there are times where a new PCP might be in order. Anyway, hopefully we will know the results by tomorrow, but it's hard to say. I guess no phone call is better than an urgent one, right? I'll keep you posted.

In other, not-so-medical news, Isaiah got to play in a ball pit for the first time ever (if you think about it, ball pits are usually in restaurants or in malls near the food courts - places Isaiah can't go)! He was sooooo excited and hasn't stopped talking about it since (thanks Tracy, Kathy, Peggy, and April!!!)! =0) He thoroughly enjoyed himself and has asked to go back to the "playground room." =0)

Oh yeah, and guess who is turning 4 on Thursday???? Yup, my little baby boy will be 4!!! Yes, I will post pics of his special day!! =0)

That's all for our happenings around here. There's a lot to keep up with . . . oh, yeah, one more thing. You know how I was talking about the heat??? My dad (yup, you read that right, my dad) is even complaining about the heat! HA! This is coming from the man that wants to roast all of us in the house, he's actually saying it's hot! =0) Just thought that was funny. =0)

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Prednisone, Again . . .

We finally made it back from St. Pete. I thought the trip would never end! We did stay in a nice hotel, but the driving directions to that hotel (and consequently, to the hospital) were very incorrect. Go figure. =0) Anyway, I'm thankful we were able to stay in a hotel and not in the hospital (as nice as that hospital may be).

The doctor was concerned with the way Isaiah's body was handling the last episode. In fact Isaiah started breaking out in his office (and later on last night . . . we were really close to making a visit to All Children's ER last night because of a rash a lot like the one on Wednesday). Anyway, the doctor said that Isaiah was still swollen (most notable was his esophagus) and thought that Isaiah's lungs were also irritated/inflamed. His eczema was also flaring up quite a bit, as is the spot that never goes away on his foot (which also happened to be infected, again - a very common occurrence). So, Isaiah is back on prednisone . . . for at least 4 months. During those 4 months, Isaiah's dose will be decreased gradually, hopefully weaning him off by the end of the 4th month. Hopefully things will go as planned, otherwise, Isaiah will remain on a particular dose for a period of time . . . no idea how long that "period of time" will be, either - hopefully, we will never have to find out. The doctor also increased Isaiah's zyrtec from once a day to twice a day - he is now on an adult dose. The same goes for nasonex, which is now a daily med. Isaiah is not even 4 and is on adult doses. I hate the sound of that.

I also showed the doctor the photos of Isaiah's last skin reaction and his (normally emotionless) reaction was a horribly saddened face with a, "Oh, oh poor baby!" =0) Not that I didn't feel bad for Isaiah, but it was funny to see the guy's reaction - it's the first time we've seen any emotion from him. He also kept saying, "He is just very highly allergic, he is just very highly sensitive."

On the bright side, we (when I say "we" I really mean "Isaiah") got the doc to laugh. =0) Leave it up to my Scrunch! =0)

Other than that, the appointment wasn't all that productive. As the doctor said at the last appointment, there isn't much else we can really do for Isaiah at this point - he's on just about everything there is (that is approved by the FDA) to treat the symptoms. There is no cure and nothing to stop every symptom from happening - you treat it as it happens. Another thing I hate about masto. Right now, medically speaking, prednisone and adjusting dosages is all we have left. As I mentioned before, Xolair could make things immediately worse or make things worse when the year of treatment is up. So, Xolair is not an option because it just won't help. Even though the news isn't all that wonderful, things could be so much worse than they are. I am so thankful that we know and serve a God who can cure this (and in the words of Isaiah, "I win!"). =0)

I did show the doctor (Isaiah has more than one at All Children's that handles his case) the cooling vest and he thought it was an awesome idea and really liked how it fit Isaiah's personality. He also liked the ventilated shoes. =0)We did stay for a second night in St. Pete just in case - the doctor didn't like the idea of us leaving until the steroids had an extra bit of a chance to start working. He also wanted to see him if he were to anaphylax again while we were there. I have to say that I'm pretty sure the steroids have kicked in - Isaiah is already pigging out! =0) That's actually a good thing because he had also stopped eating again . . . except for popcorn. =0)

As for our planned vacation that would have been this coming week, it has been cancelled. We were planning to go to MD for about a week, but Isaiah's doctors do not want him to travel right now . . . you know, apart from a 3 hour drive to the doctor's office in St. Pete . . . 3 hours each direction. =0) Seriously, though, a long trip (even a short one by plane) would be too much for Isaiah right now. Especially since each state has its own environment - new environment = allergic reaction. Not to mention the stress of travelling, alone, can cause a reaction. I guess we'll have to wait for a vacation until Isaiah's symptoms decrease. Hopefully, we'll be able to take that trip next month.

Well, that's all I have for now. =0)

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Very Quick Update on Isaiah . . .

I figured I would let you guys know that the allergists at All Children's reviewed the pics of Isaiah's reaction last night and want to see him on Friday in St. Pete. If we have any more reactions like the one last night, we are to go straight to the ER and have the ER contact the doctor on call. The allergists are concerned that Isaiah's body is just not getting over the last reaction. There was also brief talk of prednisone again (he stopped prednisone about 2 weeks ago).

On the bright side, Isaiah is doing a little better today. He still has a residual rash on his face and chest from last night, and continued to have the dark circles under his eyes and pale skin. He has also been spitting up quite a bit today (which had subsided). The leg pain was off and on today, though he seemed to be doing pretty good this evening before he went to bed. I did notice that his lips were swollen tonight.

Thank you guys so much for your encouraging words and for your prayers - they mean so much to us!! I will keep you posted.


Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Some things I Promised =0)

Well, there are a few things I promised to post, so I think now is the best time to post them . . . you know, before all the stuff becomes 1, 2, 3 weeks overdue. ;0) Just so you know, this is one of those long posts. =0)


Isaiah had a blast! It was such a wonderful experience for him. So much so that he still hasn't stopped talking about it! =0) He is still singing the songs, talking about the activities (the binoculars and safari are still very high on the list), and he still wants to use the red finger paint. =0) He has even recited some of the Scripture memory verses, though he has the references all wrong and the majority of the verse is babble . . . cut the kid some slack, he's only 3 1/2. =0) Just kidding . . . he is 3 1/2, but unless you help him slowly memorize something, he will repeat it just the way he hears it only quicker. =0) (and the 3 1/2 thing . . . someone has a birthday very soon . . . my baby will be 4!!!!!!)

Really, he had an awesome time. It was amazing how much he talked about, whether you could understand all of what he was saying or not. =0) He even learned a new song - the Hokey Poky!!! He is sooo cute doing the little dance!!! =0) I'll have to get a video of it to show you guys.

The Cooling Vest

No, I did not get it finished before VBS. Yes, I did finish it. Yes, it does work (at least temporarily and in less extreme situations . . . for at least mild flushing and heat issues) . . . and yes, Isaiah loves it! =0) In fact, we have had problems getting him to take it off. The best part is that it doubles as a weighted vest (these are sometimes used with kiddos with Autism and ADHD, along with others who have sensory disorders). I haven't exactly used it as a weighted vest, yet, but who knows??? I might have to try that . . . =0) In hind-sight, it might have been easier to surf the web looking for a child's fishing vest and add a few pockets here and there. On the other hand, I'm glad I chose to make the vest - it is Isaiah-approved (he loves trains)! =0)

Anyway, after much poking and extremely sore fingers (and boy, hope there are no stains on the thing), here is the finished product (please remember, I am not Martha Stewart or anybody else who is really good with sewing, so please ignore the seems . . . and pockets): =0)

The front (there are even little pockets on the outside of the vest . . . you know, for trains and little hands) =0)

One of Isaiah's favorite features . . . the buttons Thomas, James, and Mavis =0)

The inside of the vest (yes, I cheated on the buttons . . . they are velcro - it just makes it easier to take on and off).

One of 4 pockets on the inside (two in front and two in back). The inside pockets hold the ice packs and are made out of a thicker material similar to a baby blanket - thick enough to hold the ice packs and thick enough to let just enough of the cool through.

Oh yeah, and the sore fingers and bloody stains . . . this vest really brings a whole new meaning to the phrase, "I put my blood, sweat, and tears into this." =0)

Update on Isaiah

Isaiah is still having a really rough time. In addition to the leg pain (which he has even complained of several times today, he also broke out in a rash on his face, neck, and chest. At one point, he started to breathe a little funny (not enough to merit an Epi, but it was starting to really worry me). As Beth pointed out (thanks for reminding me of this), some of the pain could be from the prednisone. On the other hand, it's not unusual to have bone pain along with masto. It could be a combination of both. All I know is that it seems to get a little better with Benadryl or Hydroxyzine . . . not completely better, but better. It also seems to get worse with a reaction. It's also interesting that he has actually paid more attention to it during the day. There were a few times today where he would actually grab his legs and cry today. I know it existed during the day before, but it seems to be more aggravated lately. (the red dot directly under his nose is one of those red, disco-light spots . . . a small one, but definitely one of those spots)

As I mentioned, he is having difficulty recovering from the last anaphylaxis episode. I was really hoping that he would wake up today well-rested and over the last episode. Instead, his eyes started swelling and he ended up with his right eye swollen (and even darker than yesterday), red disco-light spots, hives, and another rash on his face, neck, and chest. Even after the Hydroxyzine and Benadryl (which took a little longer than I had hoped to work), he still has the rash and a red, swollen eye. Trust me - I am overly vigilant tonight. The fact that the meds are barely helping these things is getting to me. I want so much to make all of this go away for him, yet there is nothing that I can physically do to make that happen.

The funny thing is, he still seems to take it all mostly in stride - he is irritable and cries at the drop of a hat. I feel so bad for him. Still, he has that amazing smile and giggle that remind me that it's going to be okay and that if he can keep smiling, so can I. It's amazing what you can learn from adversity if you'd just take a moment to step back and look at things from someonelse's perspective. Again, thankfully, God has all of this under His control.

One of Isaiah's lighter moments today . . . ah, my knight in shining armor . . . uh, helmet! =0)

As far as the blood work . . . hopefully we can get the ped moving on this tomorrow . . . or it's off to the local allergist to get the ball rolling. =0) I'm not one to switch doctors, but I think I may need to look into a new ped. =0)

I will keep you guys posted. Please, keep Isaiah in your prayers.

My Dad

I know I haven't posted on my dad for a while, so I figure it's probably about time to do so. There really isn't too much to report, which is both a good and bad thing. He is still in a lot of pain (in fact he has been rocking when he thinks no one is looking). I even caught him one time last week crying because he is in so much pain . . . and frustrated. He is noticing he can't do everything he used to and everything that he wants to.

He is also worried about Isaiah, which doesn't seem to help him much. Of course, if we weren't living in the same house, I think he would be going out of his mind. It's funny how much they need each other. =0) As I mentioned with Isaiah, please keep praying for my dad. Even though things may not seem better, prayer always helps.


I think that's all for now . . . =0)

. . . well, except that I am so glad that God keeps His promises and even gives us symbols to remember that His word always remains and never changes nor fails . . .


Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Please Keep Praying

Just a quick update . . .

Isaiah still isn't feeling very well. He had his moments of normalcy today, but was awake a lot last night with leg pain . . . leg pain that lasted through to today.

I took him to the pediatrician this afternoon (insurance stuff after an ER visit), and the ped said that his tongue was still swollen (you could hear that by the way he was speaking), along with his eyes and lips. On top of that, Isaiah is extremely pale and looks like he has been punched in both eyes. Seriously, he looks like he doesn't feel good. The ped also added that there wasn't anything he could do. What?!? So, my child's tongue is swollen and his legs hurt him so badly he would rather be carried and there isn't at least one suggestion??? Nope. Just a, "this must be really difficult" for Isaiah and I and a, "bye." Okay, so I know there is only so much that you can physically do, but sheesh! Needless to say, this isn't the ped that we like to see. =0) There is at least one person in the office that we like to see, who seems to be at least somewhat gentle with her words.

Anyway, the allergist in St. Pete is worried (and a tad ticked that the ped didn't do labs and at the last remarks to us before he walked out the door) - he said that he doesn't like how this last episode is lingering like it is. Isaiah usually recovers rather quickly - usually within 6 to 12 hours. He is concerned about Isaiah's blood counts. At first, the doctor made it sound like we were going to go straight to the hospital after we got off the phone with him to have Isaiah's labs . . . thankfully, we can wait until tomorrow morning, when we go back to the ped's office to get a referral to go to the lab. He started throwing a few words around here and there, but that's beside the point. Please keep praying for Isaiah. The leg pain and such is just so difficult to handle - there is very little consoling Isaiah when his legs hurt that badly. Somehow, the little guy still gives you a smile and a giggle that could melt a heart of stone. I just hate to see him so quiet and miserable. I would rather have a "tornado" to clean up after than my baby be so silent. Okay, so ask me that when Isaiah's feeling better and I may have a slightly different answer. =0)

I am so glad God is in control and that He has all the answers and remedies that we'll ever need.

I promise I do have photos to post along with details about VBS . . . it's coming, I promise. =0) For tonight, I need to sleep. =0)

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Another Epi and Another ER Visit

Isaiah had another rough evening that required an Epi pen and a trip to the hospital - with no known/obvious cause (not all that unusual for Isaiah). This time he was awake enough to comment on the fire engine and ambulance that came to see him. =0) While I don't like the idea that he anaphylaxed again, it was good to see him more alert this time - we caught it early and he was getting his bedtime doses at about the same time he anaphylaxed (they would have started working at about the same time the ambulance arrived). As with the past few episodes, he had issues with his heart rate and BP again, but at least he was responsive. He didn't even vomit this time - he had edema in his face (lips, eyes, hands), the disco-light spots, flushing (everywhere), a slight fever (not unusual with anaphylaxis), leg pain, tummy pain, and breathing issues (he had the early sounds of rales - I have no idea if I spelled that correctly). The Epi seemed to handle things pretty well this time and Isaiah seemed to know that he wasn't feeling quite right - he actually told us before he started vomiting!!! Isaiah never ceases to amaze me.

I am quite frustrated that there isn't more we can do (physically) to prevent these episodes. It's a helpless place to be. If all the episodes were like this one, it might not be so bad . . . if you are the type to compare things. It's just that this episode might have been just as bad had it not occurred when it did and had we not acted faster . . . completely God that we caught it so quickly. I can also say that His peace helped me get through without a tear - even Isaiah didn't cry! He's such a little trooper!!! God is working in this little guy for His glory.

During VBS this week, we briefly discussed the verse in Mark that talks about Jesus healing the blind man. When people asked Jesus who had sinned to cause the man's blindness, Jesus answered that it wasn't because of anyone's sin, but that God was using the blindness to glorify Him. Of course, Pastor Jay was talking about sin not directly causing the man's blindness, but the fact that God was using this man's ailment for His glory that stuck out to me. I have to admit that tears were in my eyes just thinking about this. It's amazing how God works in our lives and uses even those who cannot communicate just yet to reveal Himself.

I'm not even going to talk about whether or not God causes the illness, but I'm amazed at how God can take something so negative and use it for something positive. Honestly, I have no desire to ask God why - He knows and that's good enough for me. I'm not so sure I could handle His answer. There are definitely times where I want to be angry at someone for my baby going through all of this - the mother in me makes me want to attack whatever is causing my baby pain. I want to blame someone for everything Isaiah is going through. The hardest part is that there isn't anyone to be angry with or to blame (you know, physically at least). =0) Of course, I'd be glad to kick satan's butt for this (usually I use the word tush, but I'm not exactly keeping this kid-friendly here), but I know that there is more to this than just his horrible plan for my son. I guess that's where being angry at this "masto" comes in. Sometimes I want to scream at this "masto". Oddly enough, however, this "masto" is really a bunch of cells that exist in everyone's body . . . Isaiah's are just a little over-reactive. Something created to work properly that just don't want to work the way they're supposed to.

My brain hurts right now. I am tired, but I feel like I am on alert. Grrrr, adrenaline. =0) I will post more later - especially about Isaiah's fun time at VBS!!!!! =0) I also have some pics to post . . . but since my brain is ready for rest, that'll have to wait until later. =0)

Please keep Isaiah and my dad in your prayers (and thank you for praying)!!!!